On the food side of things I am fine, just finding the energy to do the second bout of cardio after a long day is almost impossible, I say almost because I still get it done, only just. It's not like this everyday, just some days but those days feel like forever. I had such a high energy day on Friday and Saturday then I came crashing down sunday and i'm waiting on the dreaded monthly to start already!
It was all too much for me yesterday I had thoughts creeping into my mind about throwing in the towel, but I knew straight away I would never do this and if I did I would regret it more then anything.
I must stay focused.
My journey has began well and truly and I have started seeing changes and many people are commenting. I hope that my journey brings me to the whole reason why I am doing this, to better my physique from last comp, that is my goal, my battle, my intension and I hope to succeed in doing this, i'm just a little doubtful about my legs as I can only train them a quarter of what I used to train them at as I can't have weight on me as it kills my lower back.
With my back inflamed again it causes sciatica, not having much fun with numbness and shooting pain running down glute, hammie and calf.
So this is why I question myself about wether to do this comp or not. I will keep at it though, I really can't imagine stopping at this stage, one day at a time right?
Sorry about the gloomy post I just feel down today, my back pain drags me down. But you know me, I will bounce right back in no time :-)